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Monday, 17 May 2010

June

♫Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk, Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt, Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me, Because of you I am afraid...♫ almost a year since I nearly decided that life wasn't worth living anymore. scary to think that your words drew my hand to a true blade. surfing old stuff in Yahoo mail=reality check. can't wait for May and June to just be over...I wish I could just erase my memories. you're not worth this. I have someone new to live for....get out of my head!!!

Monday, 10 May 2010

Perspectives from Martin Luther that have helped me define my own faith.

Every man must do two things alone; he must do his own believing and his own dying.
I shall never be a heretic; I may err in dispute, but I do not wish to decide anything finally; on the other hand, I am not bound by the opinions of men.
Anyone who is to find Christ must first find the church. How could anyone know where Christ is and what faith is in him unless he knew where his believers are?
Be a sinner and sin strongly, but more strongly have faith and rejoice in Christ. (Side note: GODS GRACE is not to be taken advantage of, and Luther is most certainly NOT advocating sinning and simply expecting God to ignore it.)
Beautiful music is the art of the prophets that can calm the agitations of the soul; it is one of the most magnificent and delightful presents God has given us.
Everything that is done in the world is done by hope.
Faith is a living, daring confidence in God's grace, so sure and certain that a man could stake his life on it a thousand times.
Faith is permitting ourselves to be seized by the things we do not see. (Side note: Faith is blind, any dictionary will tell you that, as will most Believers. Fireflight sang it well: ♫You're waiting for a sign; the fact is faith is blind♫)
Faith must trample under foot all reason, sense, and understanding.
God writes the Gospel not in the Bible alone, but also on trees, and in the flowers and clouds and stars. (Five stars to this quote.)
Grant that I may not pray alone with the mouth; help me that I may pray from the depths of my heart. I feel much freer now that I am certain the pope is the Antichrist. (LOL I don't actually believe that, I just found it highly amusing.)
If he have faith, the believer cannot be restrained. He betrays himself. He breaks out. He confesses and teaches this gospel to the people at the risk of life itself.
If I am not allowed to laugh in heaven, I don't want to go there.
Justice is a temporary thing that must at last come to an end; but the conscience is eternal and will never die. Music is the art of the prophets and the gift of God. (Take that, Church of Christ. ROFL.)
Peace if possible, truth at all costs.
Pray, and let God worry.
Prayer is a strong wall and fortress of the church; it is a goodly Christian weapon. (It is in PRAYER that the CHURCH survives, in prayer that the church comes closer to God and does His will. This is why I'm very big on prayer services and very against revivals, which, in my experience, have only temporary effect and are thus useless. To quote my pastor, and I'll try to keep it word-for-word, "If you want to see how much of a healthy relationship the church has with God, look at how many people go to a prayer service.")
Reason is a whore, the greatest enemy that faith has.
The fewer the words, the better the prayer.
To gather with God's people in united adoration of the Father is as necessary to the Christian life as prayer. (This is my emphasis on the importance of corporate worship.)
When I am angry I can pray well and preach well.
God uses lust to impel men to marry, ambition to office, avarice to earning, and fear to faith. God led me like an old blind goat.
FAITH ALONE makes someone JUST and fulfills the law.
I cannot and will not recant anything, for to go against conscience is neither right nor safe. Here I stand, I can do no other, so help me God. Amen.

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I don't know about the rest of you, but a shortened summary of my faith consists of this: I serve a PERFECT and FLAWLESS God (albeit a jealous and often angry one, who even admits this, but these are NOT flaws, because He IS God, and He DID create us, and even so, we have Jesus Christ as our intercessor between Gods' wrath and we humans of sinful nature; THANK YOU JESUS) and like Luther, I will never recant any of this. It is on this faith that I stand, it is why I choose to continue living. Because of my faith, I know my place in heaven is secured, and because of that, knowing that my faith is the focal point of my relationship with Christ, I can get through anything this world throws at me, whether it be fact-bound atheists or Bible-thumping religious radicals. AMEN.

Monday, 01 February 2010

The Meaning of "Forgiven"

By reading that title, you probably think I'm about to get into some spiel about the concept of forgiveness. I suppose I might cover that topic a little in this, but that's not what I'm spieling about here.

I am, in fact, referring to the Skillet song "Forgiven", off of the latest album Awake.

As most of you that I'm tagging are well aware, a lot of Skillet's songs can easily be taken ambiguously, and teens who like Skillet do it a LOT. For instance, the song "Yours To Hold", which Skillet will openly say is a ballad, and one that is often used as a love song between couples. However, its meaning can also be turned toward God and our relationship with Him as Christians, as His children.

To the point: I'm seeing more and more that this concept is being applied to Skillet's "Forgiven", and having examined the lyrics over and over, I've come to believe that applying this song to a person is...well, just plain wrong. Let's go over the words of this song, and I'll explain what I mean as we go along. A lot of you are not gonna be happy with my conclusion.

Forgive me now cuz I have been unfaithful
Don't ask me why cuz I don't know
This line is a confession. duh.
So many times I've tried but was unable
This heart belongs to You alone
While we ARE called to love others on Earth, our priority as Christians, first and foremost, is to love GOD. To apply this line to a person...I'll get to that.
chorusNow I'm in a secret place
Alone in Your embrace
Where all my wrongs have been erased
You have forgiven
All the promises and lies
All the times I compromised
All the times You were denied
You have forgiven
I've heard some say that these lines are too intimate to apply to God...I have no clue why. Yes, these are all things that you could potentially say to another person, but in all reality, to give more attention to another Earthly person is EXACTLY why you'd be saying these lines to God.
Forgive me, I'm ashamed
I've loved another
I can't explain cuz I don't know
No one can take Your place
And there is no other
Forever Yours and Yours alone
chorus
I get down on my knees
Feel Your love wash over me
There will never be another
You're the only one forever
And You know
I'm Yours alone
chorus

My conclusion is this: This song VERY STRONGLY INDICATES that the person you're singing to is THE MOST IMPORTANT BEING in your life. To apply it to another person is to say that that person is more important to you than Jesus, that you love that person more. Why are we Christians? We are Christians because we can say that if we were to lose EVERYTHING, even that loved one, we could still lift our hands and sing praises to Almighty God, because HE and ONLY HE can guarantee a love that will never fail, because HE and ONLY HE gave Himself up on the cross to save us from an eternity of Hell, far worse than anything life on Earth could ever throw at us. So, if you apply this song to your significant other, am I questioning your status as a Christian? To be blunt: YES.

Only Jesus Christ can dole out forgiveness like this. I'm not trying to be annoying by making this note, but when a large group of my friends seem to think that applying THIS PARTICULAR SONG to ANYONE but God, then I'm inclined to feel like our Christianity is going down the drain. To quote my pastor from this Sunday's service: Christianity is picking up your cross daily and following Jesus, and NOT from a distance. If you can't even sacrifice ONE SONG to God (think of that as your "cross" in this case, just for now, if you will), then how on Earth are you making other life decisions that define your faith, that show you for the Christian you claim to be?

OK I'm done. And don't message me any replies; anything you have to say, comment it here, because I WANT this to become a discussion.

Tuesday, 26 January 2010

One More Chance

We have to write a song for Music Theory, and it was actually due last Friday, but I've been mind-blanking up till now. Well, here it is....hoping it's good. (btw, it's REALLY hard to write a song when you've got another song stuck in your head.) Yeah, yeah, yeah....it's really lame, laugh at me later, just read it.

VERSE
Trapped in feelings I can't define
Fearing that I'd never love again
Praying to God to give me a sign
A way out of the mess I was in

BRIDGE
In two thousand nine
My innocence fell apart
But the first of twenty-ten
I found a new start

CHORUS
I refuse to pretend
I don't want this to end
I've uncovered the art
Of protecting my heart
If it's not to be
That's alright with me
But baby for now
I'm just gonna say wow
Darlin' I wanna fall in love with you

VERSE
You saved me from me
Refuge from reality
Your eyes, your touch, your kiss
Drive me to insanity

PRE-CHORUS
We had shared the same love
We thought it was true
But being hurt by that one
Was what brought me to you

CHORUS
I refuse to pretend
I don't want this to end
I've uncovered the art
Of protecting my heart
If it's not to be
That's alright with me
But baby for now
I'm just gonna say wow
Darlin' I wanna fall in love with you

BRIDGE
I wanna see you (echo)
I wanna hold you (echo)
I wanna breathe you (echo)
I wanna love you

CHORUS
I refuse to pretend
I don't want this to end
I've uncovered the art
Of protecting my heart
If it's not to be
That's alright with me
But baby for now
I'm just gonna say wow
Darlin' I wanna fall in love with you

Darlin' I wanna fall in love with you...

END

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btw, I know anyone reading this is gonna think, "he used WOW to rhyme with now?" well, yeah. cheesy? I guess. but the word "wow" has...special significance. ask and I might tell you. ;)

Monday, 11 January 2010

3 at once, huh? yeah...i'm not digging that.

so yeah. I can't decide if I hate you or not. yeah, i'm beyond pissed. i've never wanted to hurt anyone so badly in my life. I fucking LOVED you. I went out of my way for you, in sooo many ways...and you know what I'm talking about. why didn't you tell me? what kind of a bastard are you, to turn around and throw my love for you back in my face? if you'd told me, hey I'm actually with two other guys at the moment, I would have broken us off and we'd continue to be friends until you could make up your mind. what you did instead...I can't decide if it's unforgivable or not. Lord knows I'm not ready to forgive it yet, mostly cuz I'd still very cheerfully break your nose. so what am I telling you? i really don't know. maybe I just want you to know that you hurt me. i'm not saying i want you to live with the knowledge and suffer, but at the same time....I'm really not even sure what to think of you.